I really have better things to do than fight with the site to get a title on my post. I thought upgrades were supposed to make things better. Apparently not if you have a free site. It's cold. I have things to do that might make my site more interesting and, of course, Weebly doesn't want me top be able to do them. There is no title on this post because it won't let me type one in. Fascinating. Anyway, back into revision, finishing up Mary's Vampire which will be renamed as soon as it's done, and I will be starting the repost of the Cheri blob. I think a lot of you will enjoy the latter.
Hope your holidays have gone well. Look for DragonhavenProductions1, coming soon ... I hope.
Yeah, that's what I said. I'm sitting here eating chunks of watermelon with chopsticks and watching Supernatural and realizing yet again just how much I love ripe, sweet watermelon. Not watermelon flavor. Euw. Ick. Bleh. But the real deal. Cold and sweet and wonderful.
Some pleasures are just so evocative and I wish I could describe the lovely sort of crunch of the pink/red flesh. not too heavy, not too light, just wonderful. The juice. The cool wave of moisture. if I could capture that sensation bursting on the tongue in words, my writing would improve so much, and yet I'm stymied. I can't get the words to come, to tell that tiny story or the story of melting chocolate or the perfect cheese cake.
There are sensations that other people describe that you can see and feel and almost taste, that set your taste buds off so much you have to go do something about it. Lovecraft constructed creepy as did Poe, and they are the literary giants many of us look to today for shoulders to stand on and build more worlds of peculiar psychology and wonder.
I've written off and on since I was 12. Fan fiction. Original fiction. Non-fiction. I managed to complete and get accepted a thesis for my last degree. Poetry now and again, even once in spastic French. Yet when I sit down to do the revision class I'm taking it seems like every thing I've ever learned has dribbled out of my ear and left a mess on the paper or the electrons.
It's depressing. But it's also intriguing. I've a beta reader who loved the project. Didn't find much to carp about on plots and she's a stickler for good writing. So why does she enjoy the story, not find huge plot holes and yet the revision process I'm learning shows me all sorts of lack in the writing.
I hate this. But at the same time, there must be something. I guess.
Blundering through Lesson 8 ... Apparently my muse has has requested asylum in another country. I have slogged through the other lessons, discovered half my scenes have nothing to do with anything and must go, have no input from anywhere to make changes other than to cut things out wholesale and put them in other stories, maybe. The only thing my MC wants is to keep the darkness from swallowing another time line and maybe to get home, the latter of which is completely ignored as a possibility through most of the story. and there is the possibility it's all inside her head to begin with which is pretty stupid as a basis for anything and a major let down unless you're as bent as I am ... This is hopeless.
Y'know, after forty some odd years of writing fan fiction and the occasional abortive original stuff, you'd think I'd have learned something other than just how to get a lot of words on paper ... apparently not. Altho' I have figured out why fan fic works for me ... I can play in a world that's already built and only tweak things for the single story ... I apparently suck at logic/world building/intelligent characters/ ... (head/desk impact repeatedly). And I still enjoy it more than things I have read on Kindle.
End of rant. Sod it.
This has nada to do with writing, except for the weight it takes off the shoulders. Spouse saw the chemo physician for follow-up yesterday. Biopsy info from the endoscopic exploration on the 15th came back clear. The anomalies in the stomach are just scar tissue and things, no malignancy and the actual mass is receding. Now, if we can just clear the final CT scan hurdle, off to surgery and getting back to a relatively normal life ... I am not holding my breath.
Vaguely doing the chicken with the head cut off thing. How many items can you have in 86K words?
And characters. Well, not too many, but apparently too well described.
Sigh. So, now six weeks behind. LOL
I will get through this, I will get through this, I will get through this ... I think.
I finally did what I've thought of doing for years. I'm taking Holly Lisle's HTRYN course. It's my Christmas present to myself.
The course started December 15? Maybe 16th. And it's a bugger.
I figured I'd do the work, figure out what was holding up the novel and get it fixed. 22 weeks of revision course and I'm already four weeks behind.
Week one sucked. It sucked for four weeks while I found all the questionable choices I'd made and tried to figure out where I'd gone wrong, which looked like ripping out three entire chapters along with the original first one and maybe just starting all over. Tears, desolation, depression.
Explaining things to the spouse brought some clarity. Finally getting to week 2 brought some more. I brought back the original first chapter, noted that there were ways to link the other three chapters to the over all problem and am continuing through week two slowly.
I am so hoping week three picks up on speed, but I suspect not.
So, while I'm taking this course and when I'm writing, I will be blogging here about the process, in general ' cause I'm not supposed to share copyrighted material. I may do some sharing as I work because it's always good to get feedback.
I've stuck a "contact/comment" block in the side bar to the right. If you're interested in keeping up with what's going on, including any goodies I may be posting, or sending out to the email list I'm building, please sign in.
NOTE: I will not share any information I receive from you. I'm looking at writing as a way to make money, eventually. I am not interested in enriching advertisers, scam artists and other people who annoy you by sending you emails you do not want.
Back to revision work.